Well hello there... I know that it has been quite some time since I last wrote. Needless to say a lot has happened in the time in between-- both good and not so good. All I know for sure in the chaos of life over the past year or so God has been faithful through the ups and downs of it all. Let me give you a brief overview of what all has gone on and in the coming days and weeks I hope to give a more in depth look at different significant events and milestones of 2011 and parts of 2012 we have experienced.
The last time I wrote I had written out a list of goals for the year 2011. Regretfully I struggled a lot with meeting many of them. The hope to be more gentle with myself, laugh more and honor my desires & intuition was quickly overshadowed by old ways and habits of my eating disorder....
I continued taking my final classes at UNT in the spring while also working at the University. I got news not long after I last posted that I was short a couple hours in order to graduate in May therefore would have to make up that time in the summer semesters and wait to graduate in August. I went ahead and resigned from my job at the University in May and took a Maymester so that I could still have somewhat of a summer.
For my birthday, Mom and Dad's anniversary and a belated birthday present for Connor we went to Maui... Our first time in Hawaii (and it won't be our last)!!!
Throughout the summer my job was job hunting for my first full time job as a college graduate. I spent countless amounts of time and energy applying for, preparing for and interviewing with various potential places of employment. In July I was hired at Sunrise Senior Living in Frisco to work as a Care Manager with the senior in the Independent Living Neighborhood called the Terrace Club. My job consisted of assisting in the day to day needs and care of the residents as well as planning and executing daily activities to prolong and enhance the aging process.
In August I walked across the stage receiving a degree with a Bachelor's in Psychology.
I also got to be a part of one of my best friend's wedding.
Over this entire time my eating disorder was becoming more and more of a problem... a problem which I chose to ignore. I was doing very little laughing, much less living for anything other than to practice my eating disorder and in the months leading up to December ed was spilling into every aspect of my life. Before I knew it I was at death's door, scared I was going to die, but too far into the grips of ED to make choices to dig out of the hole I had created for myself.
I ended up deciding to resign from my job and I checked myself into the hospital. I thought I would use the insurance I had left for the year as a boost to get me headed back in the right direction with my food.... Little did I know, God had much different plans and I would end up staying there almost 3 months.
This leads us up to where things are now...The first part of March I left the hospital in a much better place physically and emotionally than I came in at. I decided to move back to Tyler and live with my parents for a stint of time until I can fully get back on my feet -- luckily my parents and Rootbeer (our dog) graciously accepted me.
In the here and now my job is recovery and taking care of me-- enjoying the little things in life so that I can one day experience the dreams I have deep in my heart. Although 2011 didn't pan out exactly as I had hoped, as I said in the beginning, God has been faithful through it all.
"For the mountains may move and the hills disappear, but even then my faithful love for you will remain. My covenant of blessing will never be broken," says the LORD, who has mercy on you." -Isaiah 54:10