Wow! It’s been quite a while since I have written! I came across a link for my blog in the TimeHop app and thought I would look at it and boy does it bring back memories and makes me realize how awesome God is to have brought me from where I was to where I am now, years later!
In June 2012 I started working for a local flower shop called French Peas. As I have mentioned in previous blogs I had a dream to open my own flower shop… little did I know the work that went into that and I quickly changed my mind. I worked there about a year mainly delivering and doing some designing. It was fun while it lasted and the ladies that I worked with were phenomenal, but it just wasn’t for me.
In June 2013 I got a job through a friend working at EOG Resources as a land clerk. The job mainly consisted of scanning in lease documents into a computer program and then filing them accordingly. It was pretty monotonous, paid well and was good for me. I did that for 2 years & then when the price of oil dropped so did the demand for my job and finding work for me to do to keep me around became difficult. First they cut my hours and then they had to let me go completely.
No worries though! Within days I had a new job, my dream job placed in my hands! Here’s how it happened. The Sunday before I got laid off my parents and I were at a meeting. A lady at the meeting asked what I really wanted to do with my life and I said I would like to go back to school and get my Masters so that I can counsel. My mom overheard me talking and contacted one of her friends that’s a counselor the Tuesday I got laid off to ask her how long it took for her to go through school and get her counseling degree. She informed my mom that the counseling center that she worked for had an opening for a receptionist position and if I was interested to contact the executive director. Well I had text my mom telling her the bad news about my job and she said “CALL ME ASAP” so I did and she told me about the job. I contacted the director and she wanted to set up an interview. I met with her on a Friday and pretty much had the job on the spot, she just needed to contact my references to make sure I was all good. The following week I got word that the job was ALL MINE! God is so good! “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28
My new place of employment is Samaritan Counseling Center of Tyler! I started in May, not long after I lost my job at EOG and have loved every minute of it. What does the job consist of? Well, I answer the phones, check in clients and take their payments, complete phone intake assessments (this consists of gathering information about the new client and figuring out which of our 13 counselors is the best fit for the person) and they have also taught me how to file insurance. The job has been great for me! There is so much more interaction with people than when I worked at EOG. There I was just stuck in a back office all alone scanning my life away, lol. The time spent there was good for me but this has been even better. I love getting to interact with each of the clients as the come in throughout the day. The job has given me a since of worth… that I am needed and appreciated. And guess what?! Doing what I do has given me the desire to go back to school finally and get my Masters so I can counsel like everyone else who works here!
So I guess you are wondering with all this going on how recovery for me is going? Well ladies and gentleman I am happy to report that it will be FOUR YEARS in December that I have been in recovery from Anorexia! Wow! I can’t believe it. I have never, ever been in recovery this long or even dreamed that I would be able to! But I have! It’s been hard, and sometimes I still struggle, but overall I am well! How have I done it you wonder? Well, I have to attribute a huge part of it to lots of prayer and the extra support of my family. You know I moved back home after my long stint as Presby December 2011- March 2012 and that has been so good for me. My parents have been great! So supportive, in a non-enabling way. It hasn’t always been easy, in fact the first year we had to have several hard talks… like threatening to kick me out and take me to the Salvation Army if I wanted to practice my eating disorder in their home. Luckily though, I was able to make the necessary changes needed and do the next right thing to take care of myself. J So one thing that has been SO vital through these last 3 ½ years has been prayer! I make a point to pray usually with my mom before each meal. It not just your simple, ‘thank you Lord for this food,’ but it’s a good, meaningful conversation with the Lord for about 2-3 minutes. Not only do I pray before meals but I also have added in the last 6 months about 30 minutes of time each morning before work to talk to the Lord and lift friends and family up in prayer. (so if you ever wonder if you're being prayed for when I say 'I'm praying for you,' I AM!!) Although at times it can seem like a hassle I feel that it has really contributed positively to my success. Another key component to my recovery has been regularly seeing my AWESOME dietitian Sara Upson. I started seeing her weekly not long after I moved back home and now have gotten to a place where I only have to see her twice a month. She has been great! A real God send! (if you need her information to get some help let me know! I’ll be glad to share). Let’s see what else…. MEETINGS! 12 step meetings have been another great support system for me. I go to about 2-3 meetings a week, and one of those I unlock the meeting location and lead the actual meeting, it’s for addicts and family of addicts. It’s called the ‘Family After’ meeting. It’s on Sunday nights. Being in a setting with other, like-minded people seeking recovery has been another great thing for me (sorry to use the word ‘great’ so much, lol). I have made some true, meaningful friends there. And I have also had the chance to do what I said I knew I had to do to stay in recovery and that’s to work ALLLLLLL the 12-steps! Very healing. When I first started on my recovery journey this time around I wanted to want recovery, but in my heart still wanted my eating disorder, but with time, prayer, meetings and consistency that changed to me truly wanting recovery for myself and believing I could do it and I deserved it! Lastly, but not least at all has been incorporating a healthy, balanced amount of exercise which has consisted of walking and yoga, These are both things that I enjoy and find help me feel good and more confident in my recovered body. Body image is still a struggle at times, but overall I am accepting and appreciative of the body God has given me and work daily on treating it as His temple.
So there’s an updated of what life has been like since I last blogged. I know it’s a lot to read, I am sorry. I hope that it was worth your time and brings you some hope that living life and upholding a job in recovery is possible.... You can ENJOY THE RIDE of LIFE! I feel so blessed and grateful for what God has done and continues to do in my life. His presence is real and His love is never failing! Can’t wait to write and share more about other things that have been going on in my life.
More to be revealed.... J
More to be revealed.... J