"The funny part about my eating disorder is that it tricked me into thinking that I was the strong one. that I had all the power. That restricting, controlling, and denying myself made me stronger. The harsh reality was, my eating disorder had all of the power, and I had none. It silently ruled my world, dictating my every move and breathing hot breaths of guilt, shame, and fear into my soul."
The Strength in Letting Go...
Wow! I can really relate to this article written by Huffington Post... as my 4 year anniversary of freedom from my eating disorder creeps up on me I find myself struggling more than I would like to be with this much time under my belt... Reading this reminds me that I need to let go of what was and accept my new identity as a woman who has been freed from a deadly eating disorder. Please pray for me as I continue to walk this journey of recovery.
This is another good read that is so timely considering how I am feeling right now...
Jesus Calling December 10
"Make Me the focal point of your search for security. In your private thoughts, you are still trying to order your world so that it is predictable and feels safe. Not only is this an impossible goal, but it is also counterproductive to spiritual growth. When your private world feels unsteady and you grip My hand for support, you are living in conscious dependence on Me."
"Instead of yearning for a problem-free life, rejoice that trouble can highlight your awareness of My Presence. In the darkness of adversity, you are able to see more clearly the radiance of My Face. Accept the value of problems in this life, considering them pure joy.Remember that you have an eternity of trouble-free living awaiting you in heaven."
"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
Even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds.