First and foremost, Meagan is doing very well. The journey continues to be challenging, but it is most definitely an "incredible journey". That "broken heart" Meagan speaks of on her blog profile is being healed and transformed in ways she never dreamt possible. "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible." Matthew 19:25-27
So much is being revealed to her each day. Most importantly, she is beginning to see herself as God sees her. Always before she has seen herself through the eyes of the world. The enemy has preyed upon her and held her in bondage, thus resulting in the destructive eating behaviors. Those strongholds are being torn down everyday as she is learning to use God's word as the measure of truth about who she is. She has shared many scriptures that have been ministering to her. I'd like to share a few of those and the application she's been able to use for her life.
Luke 8: 43-48 In Luke and in several other gospels the story is told of the women who had suffered with a disease for 12 years, and no one had been able to heal her. She touched the edge of Jesus' coat, and instantly she was healed. Jesus said to her "Dear woman, you are made well because you believed. Go in peace." ~ Meagan shared that she could relate to this woman because she too had suffered with a disease, an eating disorder, for 12 years. She is learning to believe and trust in the only source of true healing ~ Jesus Christ.
Psalms 45:11 The king loves your beauty. Because he is your master, you should obey him. Recently one of the Mercy graduates came and stayed at Mercy for a few days. Meagan said that they really connected, since she had dealt with many of the same difficulties as Meagan. She shared the above scripture with Meagan. This particular passage in Psalms is a song for the King's wedding. She said that she has been able to see how she must think of herself as the "bride of Christ", He sees her beauty and loves her. He must be her first love, and as that relationship is developed and nutured, all other relationships will fall into place. Because He loves her so much and knows what is best for her, she must be obedient to Him. He is Her King! As we discussed this together during one of our phone conversations another aspect of this scripture was revealed. Verse 10 says...Listen to me, daughter; look and pay attention. Forget your people and your father's family. Wow-could that be a message that even dependency on her earthly family has gotten in the way of her relationship with God??? We both had an "ah-hah" moment, because we both know very well that is true. Yes, that is just what we do as a family, we depend on each other, but it is when that dependency takes the place of our dependency on God that we fall into unhealthy relationships.
Isaiah 52 and 53 have been so powerful. Most especially Isaiah 53:5. As Ruth Graham, the wife of Billy Graham, shared from her own experience, "place your name in a scripture and make it personal". Mrs Graham's favorite verse was Isaiah 53:5 "He was pierced for Meagan's transgressions, he was crushed for my iniquities; the punishment that brought Meagan peace was upon him, and by his wounds I am healed" (v. 5). Ruth said, "I claimed that verse and then I knew that I would make it." So she did, and she received the comfort that comes by faith. Meagan, too is receiving that comfort. http://holyspiritanglican.org/media/pdf/2009-09-06_sermon.pdf
Meagan continues to receive numerous blessings from the guests that speak and teach at Mercy each week. Recently a guest was there who is involved with a fitness business in the Dallas area. She said that he shared a great message that seemed to be just what was needed for all the girls at the Nashville home that week. She had the opportunity to talk with him afterwards and tell him that she is from Texas and has been at school the last several years at UNT. She asked him if he knew about the church she attends there, The Village Church, and he did and spoke very highly of the pastor Matt Chandler. He encouraged her to look him up when she returned to the Dallas area. Then she shared with me about an amazing experience with some women of faith from the Nashville area who came and prayed with each girl individually. She felt the presence of the Holy Spirit and was moved by the prayer that was said over her. She was amazed that this women, who had just met her before she prayed with her, had such insight into the desires of Meagan's heart.
All these experiences along with a better understanding and appreciation of God's Word continue to draw Meagan closer and closer to the Lord. He is renewing her mind. Romans 12:2 Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. We could even hear a change in her voice this past weekend when we talked to her. She is excited and hopeful about what God is doing in her life. We are praising God for all the progress she has made in the six weeks that she has been at Mercy. We can't even begin to imagine what tranformation is to come. All I know is that we are going to be "utterly amazed". You see, that is the message God has been laying on my heart for several months now. I BELIEVE IT! (Written and Posted by: Angela Vrba)