She threw her hands up in the air
Jesus take the wheel,
take it from my hands,
Jesus take the wheel,
take it from my hands,
cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go, so give me one more chance.
Save me from this road I'm on.
Jesus take the wheel.
The above chorus lyrics from the Carrie Underwood song, Jesus Take the Wheel, are the words Meagan said came to her mind one day recently that was especially challenging for her. After thinking back over our phone conversations from the the last couple of weekends and reading back over a couple of letters we've received, I'd have to say this chorus from Jesus Take the Wheel says it all. And Jesus is taking the wheel on this journey. How amazing is that? Wasn't that our prayer I mentioned in the last posting.... (Oct. 15 Our prayer is that she will allow her Lord and Savior Jesus Christ to be the driver on this journey, surrendering ALL to Him!).
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
I truly believe we are all on a journey that is preplanned by God. God is the driver and we are suppose to sit back, completely rely on Him, and enjoy the ride. But as we are traveling along, life happens and so often we try to "take the wheel", be the driver, be in control. Or we let other people or things be the driver. Or we try to be the driver for someone else. Our Heavenly Father knows far better than we can ever know, what is best for us and others. What I've come to learn from my experiences is that the pain is in the resistance. The more I resist allowing God to be the driver the more "pain" (turmoil, discontent, unhappiness, fear, etc) I experience. Peace, serenity, and freedom are the gifts I recieve when I, relax, let go and let God be the driver, and enjoy the ride.
And now for an update as the journey of healing at Mercy continues.... Although Meagan misses everyone tremendously, she is adjusting well to the program. The program is so different from anything she has ever experienced. But different in a good way. The focus is healing of body, mind, and spirit. She is amazed everyday by how God is working in her life through Mercy. As you all know Meagan had a hard time understanding during the waiting period, why it was taking so long. She was often reminded that "God's timing is perfect". Well, she's had the opportunity to have a better understanding of that "perfect timing". The week that Meagan arrived was also the first week for a new nutrionist there at the Nashville home. She says that she could not have asked for a more perfect fit - she loves her and has really developed a great relationship with her. Then on top of that she has an incredible counselor, fitness director, and roommate. A true testiment of God's perfect timing. In a recent letter she said, "I am so grateful for God's timing!" Amazing!
The first couple of weeks there were very busy and quite challenging. She's especially been challenged with her meals and snacks. She has requested prayer in this area. Pray that the Lord will fulfill her heart's desire to be free from the unhealthy, controlling thoughts and behaviors about food. She desires freedom from thoughts about calories, portions, measuring, and weight. Her nutritionist has been so supportive and prays with her often. She is being taught how to challenge the negative thinking patterns with God's truth through His Word.
Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart. Psalms 37:4
Due to all the extra activities that have been taking place, she said this past week was the first that was more "on schedule". Since the Mercy Headquarters is there in Nashville they have quite a few visitors and extra activities going on. On Sat. of her first weekend there they all spent the day at a farm that is owned by a Mercy supporter. The girls got to fish, skeet shoot, ride mules (four-wheelers), shoot bowes and arrows, carve pumpkins, and more. Although she was not looking forward to the trip at first, she said that she had made up her mind to have a good time, and she did! Then the following Sat. was the first annual Run for Mercy 5K run there in Nashville. Apparently there has been a run in Monroe, La and St. Louis, MO. for several years now. Meagan said it was a great experience. She feels blessed to have been there to experience the outpouring of support and love through the community. It was reported that they raised $30,000 for Mercy. Praise the Lord!
Several pastors and other guests have been coming to speak and teach during the week. Meagan shared with me during our phone conversation yesterday that a local pastor who came there one day last week had a message that was just what she needed to hear that day. When he opened the floor for questions she said that she asked him a question and when he answered her she felt that God was speaking directly to her through Him. She also told us that there have been a couple of Mercy graduates that have connected with her and have been very encouraging and inspiring. One came with her pastor one day when he spoke there. She introduced herself to Meagan and told her that she came to Mercy with a severe ED and she has been right in the same place that she is now. She gave her a lot of hope. Then another girl that had recently graduated came across her blog and wrote Meagan to tell her that she can totally relate to all Meagan shared on her blog. There was a time that she didn't know if it would be possible to be free from the ed thinking and behaviors, but through Mercy she found that freedom. Meagan also continues to be in contact with the Mercy graduate that she had connected with during the whole application and waiting process. Each of these people plus so many others have made her more mindful and appreciative of how God is working in her life through others. Just the right person has been there for her at just the right time, time and time again. God is so good, always!
Most events and activities there at Mercy in Nashville are posted on the Mercy website, mercyministries.org It has been such a blessing for us to have that available. We've been able to see Meagan in a couple of pictures from the Run for Mercy slide show and then one from the farm trip. She has also had a couple of her comments published. One comment was about the farm trip and then another was about the Austin Bridge private concert. It brings tears to my eyes and I stand completely and utterly amazed by this incredible ministry. I am humbled and in awe knowing that our family is now a real part of this ministry. It is my prayer that we are each able to give back in some way. We are open and willing to serve God in any way possible through Mercy. Anthony and I will be attending a Mercy Awareness Benefit in Dallas on Nov. 14. We are looking forward to meeting Nancy Alcorn, the Mercy founder, and hopefully finding out more about how we can help. We are also hopeful that there are possibly plans for a Mercy home in Texas sometime in the future. Oh how we'd love to be a part of that happening!
Once again Meagan and our family want to thank each of you for you continued prayers and support. Each of you contribute to this journey in a very special way. May God richly bless each of you. There will be more to come later as the journey continues.......
(Written and posted by Angela Vrba - Nov. 1, 2009)